Marilyn Lawson
9th January 2008, 12:42 AM (00:42)
Kevin left a song on my desk top tonight and here is the chorus to the song,
Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you
It says so much and tonight or better yet over the last few months - this says how I have been feeling.
Dad getting sick and almost dying, fights with the kids, wondering how Mikeal and Sean are, working t many hours, some issues at church, and getting sick myself.
Sets a lot of things wandering in your mind.
News Years Eve day, all heck broke loose here at home and I told Robert to take his dog and go to a friends place. The dog was making my asthma very bad and I had non stop asthma attacks since the day they moved in my place.
Today I heard from him for the first time since he left. It was pretty. He came by to pick his clothes he left here. Well my name is mud and I was polietly told we could rot and that he was never coming back to my home.
It's been a wonderful day and I am so looking forward to getting up tomorrow with the knowlegde that there will be another day and that I might make more mistakes - but survive.
I just am very tired and need a break from reality for a bit.
Marl
Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you
It says so much and tonight or better yet over the last few months - this says how I have been feeling.
Dad getting sick and almost dying, fights with the kids, wondering how Mikeal and Sean are, working t many hours, some issues at church, and getting sick myself.
Sets a lot of things wandering in your mind.
News Years Eve day, all heck broke loose here at home and I told Robert to take his dog and go to a friends place. The dog was making my asthma very bad and I had non stop asthma attacks since the day they moved in my place.
Today I heard from him for the first time since he left. It was pretty. He came by to pick his clothes he left here. Well my name is mud and I was polietly told we could rot and that he was never coming back to my home.
It's been a wonderful day and I am so looking forward to getting up tomorrow with the knowlegde that there will be another day and that I might make more mistakes - but survive.
I just am very tired and need a break from reality for a bit.
Marl