Kazimiera Fraley
May 19th, 2010, 10:05 AM
It has been recently posited on another thread and I have heard it before that somehow a Relgious (seminary or otherwise) education strips a person of their spirituality or faith. The idea being the more educated you become the less faith or spirituality you have.
I wonder if this is because those of us who have undergone this kind of education talk more about "what I learned in Seminary" than "how God worked in us" or taught us or helped us grow spiritually throughout our education. Perhaps we talk to much about how we have gained a greater understanding of the use of "Ruak" in the Old Testament than we talk about how the Holy Spirit moved us, and helped us grow close to God through our educational journeys.
So to get us thinking about how our education helped us grow and mature in our relationships with Christ, how our faith grew and mature instead of becoming atrophied, withered up and died during the process of our education or even worse our faith was replaced by our educational understanding, that we share stories about how God worked in us, taught us, strengthened our faith, and how our spiritual lives are "better" because of the time we spent in school gaining our religious education.
Of course I will start with a couple stories of my own.
I struggle with being a Christian it was hard work. I was always worried about doing the right thing and saying the right thing and not messing up or falling short. My relationship with God was not "free" or even enjoyable. It did not bring me joy. It was work and drudgery. I was constant vigilance and very little love. It was the "right" thing and I wanted the "right" thing. I would not have said it then but I realize looking back is I felt I needed earn God's love by doing the right things all the time. By saying the right things and never "messing up." I felt that if I did not do these things then God would not love me and I would not go to Heaven.
It was Laurie Braaten's Old Testament class. I don't know exactly what we were learning but my life of earning my relationship with God was suddenly brought before my mind's eye. And God showed me clearly how I was trying to earn my salvation, how I was trying to earn God's love. And the way I saw my relationship with God was flipped on its end. I did not need to earn God's love for me. I did not need to work hard to gain access to Heaven. God loved me no matter what, God loved me whether I loved God or not. God's love was constant what was not a constant was whether I loved God or not. If I loved God and choose to love God each and every day, each and every moment and spent my life living my love for God. Living in such a way that I was continually growing closer to God then all the things I was doing to "earn" God's love and in turn my salvation would still be there but I would not do them because I had to do them to stay in God's good graces but I would do them out of abundant love for God and God's unending love for me. It set my relationship with God free, and although I bet nothing changed on the outside of my life, EVERYTHING changed inside. My relationship with God was abundant and free. Even now as I try to explain how this changed my spiritual journey I find that it is hard to put words to what God did for me there in that classroom but it was truly amazing.
I was poor in seminary (who wasn't) but I know there for a while if I did the math, looked at my finances at the beginning of the month I could see that what I had would not cover my bills and put food on my table, but at the end of every month all the bills were paid and I always had food to eat (a lot of rice casserole and ramen noodles but I ate). Sometimes I would get an unexpected check in the mail or would be able to work an extra shift or something. One time I found a $20 bill on the side of the road which bought me some groceries. Other months the math just "did not add up." I still do not know how so little money covered it all. I may not be able to figure out logically how it worked out each and every month but I can tell you I know WHO made it work and it was not me. I look at seminary (it actually did not end with Seminary these sorts of "miracles" continued into the first years in the ministry as well) and see God doing small miracles all along the way. This did nothing to weaken my faith or my reliance on God, instead it strengthened it ways I will never forget.
I wonder if this is because those of us who have undergone this kind of education talk more about "what I learned in Seminary" than "how God worked in us" or taught us or helped us grow spiritually throughout our education. Perhaps we talk to much about how we have gained a greater understanding of the use of "Ruak" in the Old Testament than we talk about how the Holy Spirit moved us, and helped us grow close to God through our educational journeys.
So to get us thinking about how our education helped us grow and mature in our relationships with Christ, how our faith grew and mature instead of becoming atrophied, withered up and died during the process of our education or even worse our faith was replaced by our educational understanding, that we share stories about how God worked in us, taught us, strengthened our faith, and how our spiritual lives are "better" because of the time we spent in school gaining our religious education.
Of course I will start with a couple stories of my own.
I struggle with being a Christian it was hard work. I was always worried about doing the right thing and saying the right thing and not messing up or falling short. My relationship with God was not "free" or even enjoyable. It did not bring me joy. It was work and drudgery. I was constant vigilance and very little love. It was the "right" thing and I wanted the "right" thing. I would not have said it then but I realize looking back is I felt I needed earn God's love by doing the right things all the time. By saying the right things and never "messing up." I felt that if I did not do these things then God would not love me and I would not go to Heaven.
It was Laurie Braaten's Old Testament class. I don't know exactly what we were learning but my life of earning my relationship with God was suddenly brought before my mind's eye. And God showed me clearly how I was trying to earn my salvation, how I was trying to earn God's love. And the way I saw my relationship with God was flipped on its end. I did not need to earn God's love for me. I did not need to work hard to gain access to Heaven. God loved me no matter what, God loved me whether I loved God or not. God's love was constant what was not a constant was whether I loved God or not. If I loved God and choose to love God each and every day, each and every moment and spent my life living my love for God. Living in such a way that I was continually growing closer to God then all the things I was doing to "earn" God's love and in turn my salvation would still be there but I would not do them because I had to do them to stay in God's good graces but I would do them out of abundant love for God and God's unending love for me. It set my relationship with God free, and although I bet nothing changed on the outside of my life, EVERYTHING changed inside. My relationship with God was abundant and free. Even now as I try to explain how this changed my spiritual journey I find that it is hard to put words to what God did for me there in that classroom but it was truly amazing.
I was poor in seminary (who wasn't) but I know there for a while if I did the math, looked at my finances at the beginning of the month I could see that what I had would not cover my bills and put food on my table, but at the end of every month all the bills were paid and I always had food to eat (a lot of rice casserole and ramen noodles but I ate). Sometimes I would get an unexpected check in the mail or would be able to work an extra shift or something. One time I found a $20 bill on the side of the road which bought me some groceries. Other months the math just "did not add up." I still do not know how so little money covered it all. I may not be able to figure out logically how it worked out each and every month but I can tell you I know WHO made it work and it was not me. I look at seminary (it actually did not end with Seminary these sorts of "miracles" continued into the first years in the ministry as well) and see God doing small miracles all along the way. This did nothing to weaken my faith or my reliance on God, instead it strengthened it ways I will never forget.