This has become an unhealthy distraction for me. I have discovered that I really don't know anything. I can't afford to spend my time watching not just the Nazarene church but the church in the US be torn apart by this argument about the Emergent church. I am plain worn out just trying to figure out what an Emergent church is.
I have tried to read the articles and I have tried to read and watch the information from the Concerned Nazarenes and I just start feeling sick. I really just feel a darkness come upon me anytime this subject comes up.
I just can't do it. So much of this makes no sense to me. I see the behavior of many involved and I do not see Jesus. I have read the personal comments back and forth and on the various facebook pages and blogs on both sides and I see a joy that is present in declaring the other person wrong.
How can there be anything but sadness?
I'm sorry but my community here needs me. They need me to be healthy. I may be messed up theologically and I may not know anything. But every day all I can do is dedicate myself to serving Christ as His slave. All that I know to do is to lay myself out before Christ and beg Him to purify me and to find me useful. May I somehow, someway, in spite of my inadequacies and weakness, glorify God.