Forgive me for being amped up.
The shooting in Aurora, Colorado
Maybe there will be a great deal of debate as to how and why this happened. Maybe not.
We have been killing each other on a relatively consistent basis for eons for a variety of reasons with a variety of theological and atheological permissions. We have had adultery, murder, greed, envy, and jealousy for millenniums. Perhaps that has caused us to retreat to a position of trying to minimize and manage the evil that resides in our hearts. Perhaps that is even worked out in our theologies of heaven and hell.
I just know I feel weak and powerless. Not in the good sense like "God's strength is perfected in my weakness" but in the "Lord, Lord did we not do all these things in your name? And Jesus responds with "Depart from me..."
I can cut off my hand and gouge out my eyes and still have lust in my heart. The actions just keep me from committing the offense physically but does nothing for me spiritually.
How do I engage people with the Kingdom of God, its promises and mission, and not devolve into a people that are waiting for a spiritual airlift?
Certain theologies will drive me to distraction and anger me. I pray that my theology will drive me to my knees to seek and know God's will for MY life and how I am to be a minister of reconciliation. To weep with those who weep and carry the burdens of my family members.
I want a theology that will not let me off the hook from loving my enemies. I want a theology that looks, sounds, and acts like Jesus...not a Jesus with whom I am comfortable and lets my darkness masquerade as light. I want to be light and let the Light shine in the darkness.
Anyway....thanks for listening.